At
first, adjustment to a new environment was really hard. I complained, I
struggled, I cried, and then I became used to it. I learned how to ‘really’
study, but I also learned how to copy to survive, haha. It was one of my
regrets though, I should have study better. Because most of the thing they
taught you in college you can use it in your future.
On my third year, I think it was here that
I hit the bed rock. Something happened to me that changed my life forever. What
I thought ‘my life’ I used to revolve suddenly didn't exist anymore. It will be
too long and personal for me to tell haha so I’ll just share the thing I
learned “Anything could possibly happen”. It’s the time I started to reflect
what I really wanted to be, the time I started to learn to love my course, the
time I started to know God better.
This is also the time that subjects become
harder and harder I struggled to pass some of my majors, but whew~ I thank God
for guiding me to succeed all of them. I think nursing was really hard because
it always put us away from our comfort zone. It teaches us how to be flexible. But
because of that, nursing taught me the best lesson. When you were out of your
comfort zone it is where you learn best.
(3rd year. Duty and Thesis days)
After our last sembreak, suddenly all
things flipped so fast. First the diagnostic test, project seminars, case presentaion, then the first comprehensive
exam, second comprehensive exam, clinical graduation, graduation dinner, graduation at PICC,
review at Rank1. We plead to pass, studied to death, ate to feel happy, and
slept sleeplessly. It happened so fast
that you’ll realize it’s only days before our examination.
(Photo from the seminar we made, talking about how to pass the board exam)
(Our Clinical Graduation)
(Our Graduation Rites at PICC)
(Stolen shots taken by my classmate during our review)
I won’t forget the day I took my exam.
Natagusan kasi ako! Haha. Instead of worrying about the exam, I was anxious of
my heavy flow. Something funny happened nanaman while taking exam, just like
the time I took my entrance exam at FEU-NRMF. Could this be the sign?
The nervousness bit me just right after I
finished my exam. I can really hear how my heart beat so fast. I thought I’m
gonna faint~ I realized I can’t do anything after I passed my papers. I can’t change my answers anymore. It’s the
moment you can no longer do anything but to hope and pray.
Then one month of feeling awe. The longest
month I had.
July 8 2013, that morning I was at UP with
my dad, around 11am the time we got home. I stepped out the car and opened the
gate. After my dad parked he get out and said “Lumabas na daw results ng
Nursing sabi sa radyo! Pagka baba mo nung inanounce. Tignan natin.” I froze and
said “WAG! Wag mo muna titignan mag dadasal muna ako!” I feel the panic inside
me. I was paranoid yet I’m excited. Pampatense pa yung site ng PRC! Ang bagal
mag load.
Then there’s the list. I saw my name. I
look again to the title if I was looking at the right list. It says ‘June 2013
passers’ then I look again for my name, it was there. I look again to the
title. Then searched again for my name. (3C’s kasi sa nursing 3x mo dapat
i-check haha) Then I started to cry. I went to my dad and said “Daddy pasado
ako.” I actually wanted to shout but I can’t, nangangatog ako haha.
Finally, I feel glowing.
Even if this was not the original course I
wanted, I glad I took it. I learned a lot. I loved nursing because it taught me
holistically. I earned friends that I know I will treasure forever and learn
life lessons that changed me forever. I had to close another chapter of my
life. But when you think that it’s the end, it’s only the start. There will be
more to come.
Live your life what you wanted it to be.
Congrats to new RNs! And to those who didn't make it ‘Don’t you worry child, heaven’s got plans for you’ continue fighting
and never think of giving up! :)
I know this is so lengthy. Pero pag bigyan
niyo na ako, minsan lang to! XD
Thank you God, Thanks to my parents, family, professors, classmates, and friends. Finally, here I am.
Monina Grace Sebastian Mercado, BSN, RN
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